I deleted this picture I posted a couple days ago and I want to explain why. That was the day I didn’t “look” like “myself” and everyone around me was commenting on it. “Where is your usual ‘style’?” “Some of my friends who met you for the first time was disappointed… They expected a ‘cooler’ Han.” “This is so weird” and stuff like that. I laughed it off and said I wanted to try something different. It’s sad because all I did was dressed like a girl (that I am) for once and was skipping around in heels… and I felt completely ugly that day. To be honest, I wear guy clothes because I never had enough confidence as a girl. I have no idea what to do with makeup and don’t even know where to begin when it comes to being “pretty”. I was simply embarrassed all night. At first, I felt a sense of regret like I did something wrong or I made myself look like a fool. I felt like I had no identity at all. So I went home that night and took off everything in embarrassment and deleted the photo. But now I understand what’s it like for some people to try so hard just to please everyone else. I understand what’s it like to feel ugly in your own skin. It sucks, it sucks so much. I had a talk with my mother about how I was feeling and she said one thing to me, “People will always be shallow. We all are. Han you can dress however you want and it wont change anything because your eyes will always shine the same. Find people who looks for how your eyes shine, not for anything else. Respect yourself” She was right. So yeah idk. I’m Han a girly Lion. lol IDK omg it wasn’t meant to be a serious and long post lol *lalala
Being here, by Mark Garry, thread pins, beads
NOPE
Forever a third-wheel
It makes sense..
(Reblogged from cameronchanel)
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